I work here?

Today I left work during illuminations.
I couldn't help but completely break down in tears because I leave work DURING THIS!
That all of these people are seeing this for the very first time.
Celebrating birthdays, honeymoons, anniversaries or even family reunions.
It's such a special moment for them and I get to share it with new people EVERY DAY.

I love it.

Today was meant to happen.
I feel horrible.
I had to go to work in SO MUCH RAIN
then I got there...the beer cart was closed so I folded napkins for an hour and then we closed popcorn/beer and came home.

So first thing: I'm sick as a dog
Second thing: I would not have got off until 11:00
Third thing: I have to get up at 5am
Fourth thing: NOW I CAN WATCH HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER AND HEROES!!

Where is the magic in this?

I feel a little left out because of the kind of people that are here.
I've found some great friends but it seems like so many of the other people are only here to get drunk and sleep around.

It bothers me a whole lot because I don't want to be around those people because like I said, I really don't like them (the way they are.) But at the same time, if I don't spend time with them I really will be pushed away from the "Canadian" girls group. Sometimes I feel like...I came for the wrong reasons? Like this isn't what I had expected.

I've had lots of fun but it's all way to HUGE for me.
I like low key events.
I like spending time with the girls I've bonded with, having a few drinks.
I love just hanging out with James and Jenn and going to the parks...or just talking.

The girl that is training me is 19.
She's a drunk.
She's so annoying and rude.
Also, apparently she does this to everyone she trains...she says on our lunch break that she "forgot" her card and of course...we all work in Disney world so we offer to pay for her lunch and she can pay us back. I cannot believe this. She doesn't pay anyone back and has been doing this for 6 months.

I wish someone would have told me about that.

and now I'm really upset.
Because I don't like most of the girls that are here because they're all so slutty and I just want to have fun without all this gross drama.
I miss Aaron...
I miss my normal friends back home...
I miss my family...

I'm glad none of my roommates feel differently then I do.
they understand me completely.

I just feel like a whole lot of the magic is taken out of this job.
sigh.

Sorry, I don't know how to update.

EDIT: THIS WAS WRITTEN A FEW DAYS AGO

I really enjoy living alone.
I love my roommates, I like how I have an option to be alone or go hang out with them.

I'm just hanging out now on my computer after spending the whole day sleeping after class and I'm just having a beer "Kirinichiban" and some chips and salsa.

Last night I saw wishes at Magic Kingdom and I cried the whole time. 100% of the time. I cannot wait for whomever is coming down here to visit to see them with you guys. The whole time I was crying all I was thinking about was that my wish has come true. The firework display is all about no matter what you just wait and your wish will come true. I was standing there with 5 people I've never known before in my life and experiencing such a great feeling with them. I've bonded so well with everyone here and I love that I can just call up someone and say "want to just go watch the fireworks tonight?" How many people can say that?

16,000 apparently because that's how many employees work for the Walt Disney Company and I'm one of them!!



EDIT: This is today!

So I still love it here but this morning I had the first weird moment where I thought that I was home when I woke up. i woke up and all I hear is two people talking and I was listening trying to figure out who was visiting the house. Turns out it was just my roommates not my parents friends. It was a weird feeling.

Once our japanease roommates move out Ashley (my like best canadian friend here) is moving into my room and we're making it AWESOME. We got a TV at the throw out the night before last and I'm so excited! So now I have a TV in my room! (or I will soon)

Sorry this blog sucks because I'm really hungry and tired and don't want to write but it's just been so long!

Who could ask for anything more?

I have the best boyfriend in the world.
Aaron has never bought me flowers because he always said he wanted to wait for the perfect time.

the first two days.

So I had my first bennigins last night.
I ate a hamburger bigger then Jenn's head.
Jenn also ate a burger bigger then her head (IT WAS SO GOOD)

I went for a swim and met tons of UK people (which I'm now great friends with)
I got to meet Charlotte, Mauro, Casey, Jenn and James (the people I've been waiting to meet)
It was great we hung out went out for Pints.

Then me and Jenn had a sad moment together, I attended my first throw-out.
It was the saddest thing.
Basically two people were leaving we went to "the car wash" where the throw outs happen.
They both brought stuff they were getting rid of and told a story about everything.
I ended up coming home with 1000million hangers and a desk lamp.

Jenn also got a helmet so we can play "3 man"
We know nothing about it and apparently nobody would play it.

http://www.webtender.com/handbook/games/threeman.game

I just looked it up and me and Jenn are going to play it because the guy have us a helmet.
Jenn, I'll pick up dice today.

At the end of the throw in everyone got around and sang a cool version of O'Canada.
It was so sad but so nice.

My throw in was supposed to be tonight but there is only 2 of us so were waiting for the next arrival group and combining them.


I came home around 1am and stayed up until around 2:30 talking to Ashley (my Canadian roommate) and Julie and Julia (also both Canadian) They were all so great! I also met my ACTUAL roommate yesterday she's from Japan her name is Hiroko and is so sweet and cute.

I headed out at around 9 this morning for my first class and I just got out. Now I'm having a little nap and heading to Vista at 1:45 to get my housing ID.

I'll post pictures of my room and people later!
LOVE YOU ALL AND MISS YOU!
I'm doing much better, thanks to everyone for leaving comments and words of wisdom.
They really meant a whole lot.

ALSO EMILY BRIANNA RUDKIN
I love you and miss you tons. I promise we will talk soon.

feeling a little better

I feel so much better.
I just met a bunch of people and we're on our way out for beer pong and burgers.
I'm glad.

Hopefully tonight will be easier for sleeping.
I love you all.
and miss you all way to much